A new day dawns

It's not very often that I can't sleep, but it happens. Mostly I drift off as soon as my head hits the pillow. Mostly I sleep the whole night through. Sometimes I wake up in the early hours needing to go to the bathroom, especially if I have had a late drink, as happened last night. I keep a wind up torch next to my pillow, I don't put on the light because that fully wakes me up, and more often than not I do what I have to do in a state of half asleep. 

Back in my bed, eyes closed, I just could not drop off to sleep. Stuff going round in my head. I lay there, checked the time on my wristwatch with the wind up torch, it's 2.30am. By this time I was fully awake and trying different lying positions in the hope I would fall asleep. Nope, it didn't happen. I looked out of the window, all is quiet, I thought I would make a hot chocolate, that would do the trick. I put my fleecy dressing gown on, and looked out of the window again. By this time I had turned the light on. I didn't really fancy a hot chocolate, what about a mug of fruit tea. Yes, that would be better. I looked out of the window again. It looked very quiet out there. Dry with a slight breeze. 

Blow the drink, I'm going for a walk. And so I did. Quickly got dressed, picked up the phone just in case, picked up a small torch, just in case, and I was out the door quick as a flash. 

I did my three mile walk and it was great. Didn't see a soul, one car passed me. I half expected a police car to appear and ask me what I was doing, but it didn't. Most of the houses were in darkness, some of them had lights on, maybe they were up, maybe for security. 

I like the idea of being out and about when everyone is asleep. I used to like working nights, driving through sleeping towns, quiet motorways, alone in the company of other truck drivers doing their jobs. 

An hour later I was back, and I made a mug of tea, and turned the computer on. Now I feel ready for bed, at 5am. The darkness was lifting, it was starting to get light. I slept till 7am and got up.

I really must get rid of the shit going around in my head. It's not like me to feel bogged down. So now I've had a coffee and a piece of toast, I'm back to fighting mode. They will not beat me. No, not the demons, I don't have any. Those who are trying to control my every waking moment. 

Every day is a new day, every day is a new start. Now I'm going to have breakfast. 

Thanks for popping in. Toodle pip.  ilona