Good afternoon .
I had a troubled night last night. Bed at eleven. Still awake at 1am. Sleep for an hour. Awake at 2am. Get up at 3am. Make a drink of hot chocolate. Crank up the computer, sit reading. Back to bed at 3am. Sleep till 7am.
This was triggered by a phone call I made. It's a long story and I am not going to go into any detail here, but I thought it was time to get things out in the open. I made the first move. Initially I was shocked at the response I got. I was ready to give up within the first few minutes of the conversation. I stuck with it and let the person rant. I was being accused of something which was not of my making.
I choose not to argue with people. I listen and process the information. In a calm and collected way I state my case, then they can decide what their next move is to be.
Eventually things calmed down and the conversation took a different direction. It will never be fully resolved, we have to live with our differences.
I know I am a deep thinker, people say I over think things, but I feel that is better than diving into a situation with all guns blazing. I am happy that I can walk away from conflict with my integrity intact. It's not about winning or losing. Everyone is on a different journey, and must navigate their own way through life.
This is a bit cryptic. No more details.
Thanks for popping in. Toodle pip. ilona
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ReplyDeleteHow far your blog has fallen in five years…if indeed you did get a blog award. Lol
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DeleteI'm sorry to read someone wasn't nice to you and it disturbed your sleep. I'm lucky that my family is tolerant and open to others religion politics and ideas as we just agree to differ. Sadly my best friend is estranged from her adult children and some previous friends just because she wouldn't wear a mask or chose not to have the jab. I really think these things should be a personal choice and harbouring bad feelings because of non compliance is really awful. I see on FB all the time all these people saying 'be kind' but wonder how many really are. I really like your blog and enjoy reading it even though some of your ideas don't match mine. Hope you feel better soon and remember my motto
ReplyDeleteThey will need you before you need them.
Best wishes x
It is difficult to forgive selfish behaviour, when we were told it could cause harm to others
DeleteSally, you present a perfectly balanced comment here. Unlike the brainwashed Anon who couldn't resist poking you with a stick.
DeleteSupport your friend, she is going through something similar to what is happing in my family. You can only go so far to making amends, but then you have to let go. It is not being selfish to put yourself first.
Offensive comment again Ilona. I am not brainwashed. At the time my morals taught me to follow the advice to protect the vulnerable. Without better scientific advice it was the only thing to do
DeleteI don't give offence, you choose to take it.
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DeleteI loathe "be kind". You either are or you aren't. You don't need to advertise.
ReplyDeleteI'm a troubled sleeper. It's very rare for me to sleep through the night.
Hope tonight is smoother.
The 'be kind' thing grates on me as well. It is used to assert dominance over a situation that one does not agree with. It is used as a put down, saying I am better than you so therefore you must listen to me.
DeleteI slept very well last night. After unravelling the family situation, with two close friends, I have come up with a plan to avoid any more confrontations. There is no point in going back over old ground. Something happened three and a half years ago, which needed closure. I offered that and it went partly towards solving the situation. Now I think it's best to let sleeping dogs lie, and move on.
Sorry ilona to hear this ๐you are a true lady with dignity and politeness far too many people nowadays with Anger something is wrong in there life so they attack other people who just get on with life with a cheery smile and our content with one's life . Do not rise to the horrible individual who caused you distress. . ๐น ๐ ๐ we all think alot of you can you hear me Motheลr..
ReplyDeleteLotsa love Levi xx ๐ ♥️ ❤️
I often come across as bolshie because I am not afraid to voice my opinions on things. It is very difficult to keep quiet when I see the evil which is permeating throughout the world. The incident which I refer to in my private life will never be resolved, it has been simmering for many years. Similar with the world wide problems. When people start focussing their attention on their own lives, they will find an inner strength that they never realised they had.
DeleteYou are so right, everybody is on a different journey. When one has a fixed opinion, the best arguments will not change it. The best way to deal with conflicts is like you do it. State your case, and listen to the other side in a calm and collected way, if you can manage it. Sometimes it is hard to watch people making wrong decisions, but there is nothing you can do about it.
ReplyDeleteBest wishes
Hilde in Germany
Thank you Hilde. I look at things from all angles. It's like screwing pieces of wood together if they don't fit. It's like pouring a gallon of milk into a pint pot, it will overflow. It's like expecting two people to live together in harmony when they have very little in common. It won't work. There is no guarantee that family units will sail through their lives towards a happy ending. In every situation there will be winners and losers. Utopia doesn't exist.
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DeleteIf you had a child who can’t be vaccinated because of severe allergies you might think differently. I have such a child. He is protected when enough other people get vaccinated…it is called herd immunity.
ReplyDeleteThink about such children when you are making g your lifestyle choices.
My lifestyle choices began many years ago. I took responsibility for my own body. I always knew that I would never have children. My lifestyle choices have now evolved. I stay away from children. Their upbringing is the responsibility of their parents. Terminally ill children should always be protected by their parents.
DeleteIt doesn’t work like that. You pass children in the street, in shops.
DeleteI agree it is my responsibility to bring up my child but people who do not vaccinate put my child at risk. I agree it is your choice to vaccinate or not.
When you choose to bring a human into existence that is the risk you take - there is no guarantee that they will not have allergies or other illnesses. You cannot police other people's choices. As a vaccine injured person, I wish my parents hadn't given me any. They do nothing to prevent disease, only cause them. Look into terrain theory. The amount of people who walk around with a tiny computer in their hands yet have done no research in the past 5 years saddens me.
DeleteThank you Anon, for your common sense attitude. There has always been vaccine injuries, since the year dot. I am sorry that you have had to endure that. The nanny state has a lot to answer for, yet people are still going along with it. When people finally wake up and take responsibility for themselves then I will be happy.
DeletePlease note I said I agreed it is a personal responsibility to decide whether or not to vaccinate. It is strange, never in my life have I personally met anyone who is has been vaccine injured and no one I know, knows ANYONE who is vaccine injured. You would have thought if it was that common I would be aware of someone who was so injured. Yet I do know some who were injured without a vaccine. To say vaccines do nothing to prevent disease is, frankly, ignorant. How many people in iron lungs today (polio), how many people wearing callipers (polio, how many people around with pick marked faces (small pox).I hope you don’t get shingles or the current flu that is going around.
DeleteFor Sara
DeletePeter A. McCullough, MD, MPH® reposted
Nicolas Hulscher, MPH
@NicHulscher
Dec 12
ALL COVID vaccinated individuals should undergo cardiac screening.
Our new study indicates that ~1-3% of vaccinated individuals suffer subclinical heart damage — and sudden death can be the first manifestation.
This means MILLIONS likely have unrecognized heart damage.
We published the first screening and treatment approach for the millions of individuals with unrecognized vaccine-induced cardiac damage in a best attempt to prevent fatal cardiac arrest.
Possible warning signs people may notice:
⚠️ Chest discomfort
⚠️ Palpitations or irregular beats
⚠️ Lightheadedness or near-fainting
⚠️ Exercise intolerance
⚠️ Heart-rate instability (including POTS-like patterns)
⚠️ Labile blood pressure
Former CDC Director Robert Redfield states "we knew since the spring of 2021 that the ‘Covid Vaccines’ can induce lethal side-effects."
"They should have never been mandated...they don't prevent infection & they do have side effects."
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DeleteI think it was very brave of you to make the phone call. I've lost friends through my position on the scamdemic but I'm glad I'm glad I maintained my stance. My very small extended family have never been supportive but at least I know where I stand and can live with that. It's not easy but I guess I'm more self reliant and independent. Don't lose sleep over this. My only advice would be to make a will to ensure family members don't profit if something happens to you.
ReplyDeleteI talked about the initial fall out in a video, which is still buried in my channel. So after more than three years of silence, I decided something had to be done. I have moved on with my life, but discovered that the other party had carried around the irritations of that fateful event, all that time. No good can come of blaming someone else when things are not going right for you.
DeleteI am sleeping fine now.
Children can't go to kindergarten in this country unless they're vaccinated, not counting on herd immunity I guess.
ReplyDeleteYou forgot to mention which country you are in.
DeleteGermany for example…excellent idea
DeleteIn Australia kindergarten age children have to be vaccinated in order to attend kindergarten.
DeleteThe Aus vacc policy is referred to as No Jab No Play.
DeleteTo enrol in primary school children must show an Immunisation History Statement, this has been in place for some time in Aus.
DeleteIt's evident that the Globalists are moving in. When everyone in the Western World becomes a robot, that's the time to bail out.
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DeleteWhat gives you the right to describe someone as "brainwashed" because they don't share your views. You are not a nice person ๐
ReplyDeleteIt's my blog, that's what gives me the right. Millions of people were brainwashed, and now millions of people are sick and dying because of that. My message is exercise caution when you decide what you are going to put inside your body. If that makes me a terrible person then so be it. I am not about arse licking those who share my views. You have the right not to visit my blog.
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DeleteShe can do what she wants and say what she wants - it’s her blog after all.
DeleteDon’t forget she had done so much research on this…aka reading and believing rubbish that is posted on Twitter. Please don’t forget she paid money to go and see someone who believes the royal family are shape shifting lizards. Wouldn’t it be grand if she could explain why the more she listens to David Icke the more she thinks he is right.
Millions aren’t sick and dying….where on earth do you get that from? As for being about arse licking…you love it. You often say that you don’t accept anon comments…but you sure do when they say they agree with you and what a wonderful person you are.
Deletemillions sick and dying, that is hilarious!
Perhaps if you’d had the flu jab you would have been so sick a few weeks ago…ever thought of that?
Dr Peter McCullough, MD: "I call for all COVID-19 vaccines to be removed from the market."
Delete"All requirements and mandates for vaccination to be dropped."
"The vaccines are not safe and they did not save millions of lives."
Peter A. McCullough, MD, MPH®
@P_McCulloughMD
After Five Years, Thousands of Vaccine Deaths, Guilt-Ridden FDA "Investigates"
The US FDA is using classic damage-control tactics including minimal disclosure of 10 pediatric deaths, a leaked memo, and a too-little too-late boxed warning. This trickle of vaccine deaths will turn into a flood as public becomes activated. FDA/CDC cannot be trusted with review, public should demand independent case review of thousands of death reports with proper adjudication.
In the last couple of months I had two weeks of feeling very tired. Then a lot of coughing and sneezing. My natural immune system coped very well with that. Now I am fine. Nearly everyone who had the flu jab went on to catch a cold.
Quote from above. It's difficult to have conversations with people who refuse to reveal their identity. Hiding behind Anonymous is a cowards way of communicating.
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She can do what she wants and say what she wants - it’s her blog after all.
Don’t forget she had done so much research on this…aka reading and believing rubbish that is posted on Twitter. Please don’t forget she paid money to go and see someone who believes the royal family are shape shifting lizards. Wouldn’t it be grand if she could explain why the more she listens to David Icke the more she thinks he is right.
Ha ha. The lizard thing again. Yes, I paid to listen to David Icke in Derby. It was £35, not a great amount, and it joined a lot of dots for me.
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DeleteIt’s very easy for you to have conversations with Anons when they say how great you are.
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DeleteIt’s very easy for you to have conversations with Anons when they say how great you are.
I am not looking for praise. They don't even have to say how great I am. All they have to do is show a modicum of common sense, and show they are wide awake.
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Delete๐ฉท๐ฉท๐ฉท you are a lovely lady ilona. I've watched your video's and you really cheer me up your like sunshine ๐ ☀️ ๐ ✨️ on a spring day.. keep carrying on lovely lady .. ๐ ๐ฅณ coffee helps lol ☕️ ☕️ ☕️.. Emily xx from Lancs
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DeleteIlona there is one thing I know about you you are very much your own person and you've had to look out for yourself in life I think you are a thinker and cautious of danger and there is nothing wrong with that it's very healthy to be cautious in this life.Familys are a weird thing for sure I know many family's with differences that are hard to resolve it seems very common.Glad you are sleeping now.Be yourself always that's the best wayxx
ReplyDeleteA thinker! Seriously, all she does is believe all sorts of nonsense on Twitter…the great reset, replacement theory, vaccinations are bad…how about the chem trails and cloud seeding? Probably thinks the 2020 election was stolen. Pretty sure she thinks that gay activism is trying to recruit people.
DeleteI agree Jo dorset .. ilona takes crap from nobody i admire her for standing her ground not taking Bs.. u Rule go lady ..
DeleteLevi x from Lancs
A lot of the crap gets deleted, unless I am in the mood to answer back. It depends on the time I can allocate to online activities. I have other things to do.
DeleteAnonymous14 December 2025 at 00:49
DeleteA thinker! Seriously, all she does is believe all sorts of nonsense on Twitter…the great reset, replacement theory, vaccinations are bad…how about the chem trails and cloud seeding? Probably thinks the 2020 election was stolen. Pretty sure she thinks that gay activism is trying to recruit people.
I see Anon is keeping up. LOL
They keep coming back for more. LOL
ReplyDeleteThis is the only blog I go anonymous.. other blogs aren't so touchy. I wrote the comments about the No Jab, No Play policy. There's also the No Jab, No Pay policy. That is, people can miss out on family benefits if their children aren't vaccinated. Australia takes this seriously, polio was still around when I was young and no one wanted to spend their life in an iron lung, which some unfortunates did.
ReplyDeleteAll Bloggers can make their own rules about which comments they accept and which they don't. For me my blog is my personal diary. I may invite you in, or I may not. Perhaps you should stick to those bloggers who allow debate.
DeleteThe fact that Australia limits what their citizens can do, depending on their vaccination status, should be ringing alarm bells. They tried that here a few years ago. Can't go into into pubs, shops, travel on a bus or a train, or fly to the other side of the world, unless you had evidence of being up to date with the covid jabs. Coercion and bullying from Big Brother. Make no mistake, that will happen here eventually. All freedoms will be diluted, drip drip drip.
PS. Not so good now in Australia is it?
DeletePauline Hanson ๐ฆ๐บ
@PaulineHansonOz
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Today is an extremely dark day for our nation, particularly the Australian Jewish community, which appears to be the target of this terrorist attack.
The Prime Minister never heeded the warning signs, including the weekly anti-semitic protests across our nation, hate speech from certain religious clerics, our obnoxious universities and probable terrorist alert.
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