Hate Socializing ?

Hello. I recently found myself in a situation where I couldn't escape. Feeling trapped is my worst nightmare. I was making an effort to socialise. All was ok for a while, but then I had enough. The conversation dried up, nothing more to be said. Then I needed to escape. A lift was arranged to take me back to where my car was parked, but that was an hour away. It was too far to walk, and I didn't have a map. I just had to sit quietly until the lift was ready. I struggled I admit. 

In situations like this I just have to switch my brain off and retreat into myself. Take my mind off somewhere else. This worked well when I was driving because I was alone. My coping mechanism kicked in and I focused on the end of the road, and what I would do when I got there. 

But when you are in company it's different. It has happened to me many times in the past. Usually I just walk away. Exit the scene, quietly slip away, and hope nobody notices. No need for big goodbye's. 

Some may say this is a form of anxiety. I disagree. I can cope with whatever is thrown at me. Anxiety adds the possibly of shortening a life, something to avoid, and I aim to keep going for a while longer. I am able to counsel myself. I work things out, then find a solution for whatever is bothering me. 

So if anyone else has similar feelings, you might find this video helpful. Check out the comments, and you will find that there are many more people just like us. 

Thanks for popping in. We'll catch up soon. Toodle pip.   ilona