It was a long and boring walk into Lincoln. The path had a flat surface and quite a few families were out with their buggys and scooters. There was nothing much to look at along the way. Except the odd boat wreck now and again which either looked ready to sink, or was just abandoned.
Monday, 31 March 2025
A lot of water
It was a long and boring walk into Lincoln. The path had a flat surface and quite a few families were out with their buggys and scooters. There was nothing much to look at along the way. Except the odd boat wreck now and again which either looked ready to sink, or was just abandoned.
Porky pies
Sunday, 30 March 2025
Where did I go today.
Toodle pip. ilona
To all mothers. . . .
Several months before, I witnessed her first heart attack. I was visiting her in her flat. She took ill. I summoned a doctor who came immediately. She had literally died on the floor. He punched down hard on her chest to try and revive her. He carried on doing this until the ambulance arrived. He broke three of her ribs. I remember looking down at her as the colour was draining out of her face and her lips had gone blue, and thinking, no you can't go yet, it isn't time. We sat all night with her at the hospital. Watching the heart monitor going bleep bleep bleep. Please keep going. She did keep going and survived.
A few months later came the second heart attack. My brother was with her at the time. It was too late, this time it was fatal.
March is an emotional time for me. Mums birthday, Mums death, Brothers birthday, now he has gone as well. I am glad it's over and I can look forward to April.
To all Mums everywhere I applaud you. It's a job that I could never do. Thank you.
The sun is out. Enjoy your Sunday. See you soon. Toodle pip. ilona
Saturday, 29 March 2025
Digging for gold.
Did you know? Greenland holds vast, largely untapped mineral resources, including rare earth elements, graphite, lithium, and other critical minerals.
Friday, 28 March 2025
Bus out walk back...again.
Research ;o)
Thursday, 27 March 2025
St Andrews Church Redbourne
Visiting Redbourne
There is a little park opposite the pub with picnic benches if you wish to eat your own food. The information board gives details of the nearby Hibaldstow Airfield. Pity it is covered in bird droppings. Anyone with a bucket of water and a scrubbing brush nearby.
I peak inside through the windows. It's like a glorified shed. A place to store furniture. It may have been used as a function room for parties and celebrations. Very interesting.
Tuesday, 25 March 2025
Tales of the riverbank
Thanks for popping in. See ya soon. Toodle pip. ilona
Hate Socializing ?
Monday, 24 March 2025
Mass Migration
Reading Mr Emerson
I am liking these quotes from Ralph Waldo Emerson.
“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.”
“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.”
“Dare to live the life you have dreamed for yourself. Go forward and make your dreams come true.”
“Whatever you do, you need courage. Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires some of the same courage that a soldier needs.
“Cultivate the habit of being grateful for every good thing that comes to you, and to give thanks continuously. And because all things have contributed to your advancement, you should include all things in your gratitude.”
Sunday, 23 March 2025
I show you my shopping.
Saturday, 22 March 2025
Reading a story.
Looking outward and inward
I've been thinking about how I have arrived at this point in my life, and the road I took to get here. We can look backwards, but it is devilishly difficult to look forward. No one knows what the future may hold, we can only draw on our past experiences to guide us.
I very much disliked school. Having to go every day when most of the subjects taught did not interest me. Sitting on a chair between rows of desks, and listening to the teacher at the front did not capture my imagination. The only lessons I liked was Domestic Science, the cooking side of things not the kitchen cleaning, Sewing, embroidery and dressmaking, and art, painting although I was not very good at it. The practical lessons where I could move around were much more engaging to my mind.
When it came to leaving school, I rejoiced. Ran out of the gates one last time laughing, with my friend Celia, who was a rebel just like me. Celia went on to get married and have children, unlike me who by the age of 15 had decided that was not my ambition in life.
Going to work in a shop was a lot more preferable than extending my studies to gain qualifications, in the hope I might find a better job. Working in a shop was fun because I enjoyed meeting people. I moved to working in a factory, it wasn't as enjoyable.
Freedom to move about took me to Blackpool, where I stayed for three and a half years. I found a bedsit, found a job on the Pleasure Beach, and had a good social life.
I have moved jobs many times. I become bored with repetition and want to explore new opportunities. So when I found lorry driving that suited me down to the ground. Staying single and not being tied to a partner goes hand in hand with trucking the length and breadth of of the UK. Some European driving was thrown in the mix, which made it all the more exciting. Again, once I had learnt a job, and it became repetitive, delivering to the same places, the same vehicles, and the same loads, I became bored. And so I moved on. I had a thirst for anything which got me out on the road. Driving was all I lived for.
There was a certain amount of freedom when I was driving, the load had to be delivered, there were timetables to keep to, but the bits in between meant that I got to choose the routes that I took and where I stopped for a break, and where I parked up overnight. I could put up with the deadlines. That was the trade off to enjoy the freedom of the road. I liked the responsibility of being in charge of a 40 tonne artic, and in one job for three years I was piloting a vehicle with a gross weight of 80 tonnes.
My enthusiasm started waning when the UK entered the EU in a big way. New rules and regulations were pouring in from Brussels. I had to watch a training video on how to couple and uncouple a trailer, after I had done that thousands of times before. I couldn't see the sense of it. Don't get me wrong I am all for education, I have always wanted to better my driving qualifications, but to treat us like children annoyed me.
I stuck with my last job for seven years, because I had a mortgage to pay for. It was repetitive and boring, but the bonus was I knew the hours I was going to work, I was not pushed to hurry up and break speed limits, and they had a fleet of brand new Volvo's. It meant I could relax a little, without pressures.
Many times I said I would never give up driving a lorry. As long as I could get into the cab I would carry on till I dropped. By the time I reached 60 I was ready to go. From that moment on I knew I could reclaim my freedom to do whatever I liked. I have never worked just for the money, and I emphasise that. As long as I have enough is fine by me. I have never been trapped in a job I did not like, I have always moved on.
All this was a blue print that has moulded me into the person I am now. And so it goes full circle. This is why I will not go along with what is expected of me. A good life for me is taking responsibility for myself. This is why I look for new challenges, new experiences. At my funeral they will play the Sinatra song, 'I did it my way'. Because I have.
Thanks for popping in. I wish you a long and healthy and happy life. Look after yourself.
Toodle pip. ilona