Several months before, I witnessed her first heart attack. I was visiting her in her flat. She took ill. I summoned a doctor who came immediately. She had literally died on the floor. He punched down hard on her chest to try and revive her. He carried on doing this until the ambulance arrived. He broke three of her ribs. I remember looking down at her as the colour was draining out of her face and her lips had gone blue, and thinking, no you can't go yet, it isn't time. We sat all night with her at the hospital. Watching the heart monitor going bleep bleep bleep. Please keep going. She did keep going and survived.
A few months later came the second heart attack. My brother was with her at the time. It was too late, this time it was fatal.
March is an emotional time for me. Mums birthday, Mums death, Brothers birthday, now he has gone as well. I am glad it's over and I can look forward to April.
To all Mums everywhere I applaud you. It's a job that I could never do. Thank you.
The sun is out. Enjoy your Sunday. See you soon. Toodle pip. ilona
That is sad about your mother Ilona but over the years you have spoken about her a lot which I feel keeps her memory alive I appreciate my mum she is 78 nearly blind but still determined.things would be very different when she goes.i don't think I ever told you Ilona but I'm hugely lucky to be a mother.my son was born four months early weighing only one pound.but he survived and twenty eight now my true best friend he is so I'm thankfully I got to keep him.Have a good day ilonaxx
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your good news. I believe in miracles. Give your son a hug from me.
DeleteI know I'm not your mother Ilona but I'm proud of you as you've lived a very interesting life great career and you still make the most of each day you haven't wasted your time it's been a life very well lived and you have been true to yourself.
ReplyDeleteThank you. Life is a learning curve. The time I wasted was quickly recovered by taking a different direction. You are very kind.
DeleteI'm sorry your mother died so suddenly. Mine was bedridden several years (strokes) and aher passing just a merciful release.) I have been taken out to lunch by my daughters today (and toddler grand-daughter!), given flowers and cards, and generally spoilt.
ReplyDeleteGoing by other people's experiences of losing a parent, I suppose I should be grateful that my mum did not suffer for years as yours did. I am pleased that you had a nice day with your family.
DeleteA very poignant post about your Mum. I think Mother’s Day is a heartbreaking one for people who’ve lost their Mum. I know exactly what you mean about March. Both my parents died in March along with one of my beloved dogs. We should have also been celebrating my Dad’s birthday last week.
ReplyDeleteChin up. April 1st tomorrow.
DeleteMy mum too died one March - and was buried on her birthday in the March - I miss her so much x
ReplyDeleteTime moves on. Be aware, learn from our experiences, tomorrow is another day, another month, another year.
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