Good morning. I was on a bit of a downer yesterday, I know, that's not like me at all. But somehow all the shite going on in the world got to me. I put the computer on first thing, had a browse while I drank my coffee, and an hour later turned it off. I could take no more.
I am struggling to process why there is so much hate, why is there so much anger, why are people destroying everything around them. None of it makes any sense to me. I always think there is a solution to a problem, but it seems words now are not enough to work through something. The only way is to hit out.
I had to go for a walk yesterday morning, I had to sit on the memorial bench surrounded by fields and nature, and try and work things out in my head. I made a video, recording my thoughts. That helped but on checking it I wont put it out there. Just saying the words out loud helped.
I need to take a step back, I need to banish all news media from my computer. I need to re focus on what is important to me, and that is keeping up the links to those who, like me, are trying to have some resemblance of a normal life. Those of us who are trying to go about our daily lives, in the midst of all this mayhem going on around us. One bonus point is that my trolls have disappeared.
I stopped to chat to a friend after my walk, she understands, we are on the same wavelength. Later on while I was making my dinner she came to the door and handed me a bottle of black acrylic paint. I had mentioned that I had run out. They had been shopping and picked some up for me. I had declined to buy it from The Range, because it is so expensive. I can wait to find a cheaper alternative. That was a lovely gesture from my friends.
So, it's the beginning of another day, and I have to move on, as we all do. I don't have any answers about the current situation, and I am fed up of searching for them. One of the yoootooobers I follow has recently moved to an island on the Hebrides, he is very happy. Seems like a good move to me.
It's been raining overnight, glad I mowed the lawns yesterday. The food I put out for the birds has been scoffed, green grapes and seeded bread. The sky looks a bit stormy with a bit of brightness, maybe it won't rain again. Now I'm going to get my breakfast.
Toodle pip. ilona
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